As Brian Hill once aptly said to me - welcome to Survivorhood - its not a road for the faint of heart.

For me, the longer out I go/get from treatment, the more paranoid I become at each check up. What you are experiencing is extremely normal, and all we can really do is live one day at a time - no matter how "overused" that phrase is.

I too experienced memory loss which I attributed to being distracted, but in jest told those around me that there had been a few stray radiation beams - always a good excuse.

Don't be hard on yourself - adjustments take time. You'll get there.

Donna