Lynn, Hopefully it isn't cancer twice. That's the first thing. Just because they did a biopsy doesn't mean it's cancer. Ask EZJim. I really feel for you being a singer and going through this. I was never a professional singer but had a really good voice which I loved to use and sung in a chorus and it is totally gone (though every now and then I get a good note out -it's wierd). In my case, it is one of many losses I have had to deal with as a result of the cancer battle. Including that I DO have to eat soup forever (and since I could not swallow at all for a year or so I am grateful for that). I also have trismus, chronic mouth pain and ulcers that pop up, yadda yadda.

Some days, life sucks and I am really angry about all the losses but then I get a pretty morning like this morning with a slight chill in the air and birds at my bird feeder and music I love on my stereo and people I love nearby, and a garden to go out and dig around in, and a job that is challenging fulfilling(most of the time) and I am so thankful for what I still have. Which is all to say that if I ever DID get cancer again, I'd still fight the fight for a chance at life, at least I hope I would, despite all the losses.

But I also feel for you in terms of the struggles and the losses. Believe me.

Nelie