thanks all. yes i can and will get thru this ... just hearing news i was not expecting hit me hard is all. i was kind of on auto pilot sailing thru all of this but that one jammed the auto pilot controls and made me rethink ...

they just called to set up consult. said i will see oncologist dr, dentist, and radiologist next monday at the UW... so we shall see what all they have to say when monday comes ... until then i am dismissing them from my mind as much as possible because i need to focus on eating or finding some way to get some calories ,.,. i am losing too much

i am down about 13 lbs and can't find anything to get in me to stop the losing ... i dont feel hungry once i start to eat but feel hungry before i take a bite ... and most things are too hard to eat ....

any suggestions on high calorie things to eat that are soft and easy to get down?

i really only eat a bit of pudding here and there ... and lots of water. jello seems worthless but i do eat it some... but i want something more substantial so i am not run down for treatments.