Stephen . . . good luck from one Tar Heel resident to another. You need to focus and gather energy for "the present day" and not look too far out or concern yourself with the "what ifs". Just will not do any good. I had so many cancer surivivors tell me on the front end to stay postive as you possibly can and fight like hell. I wish I had been aware of this wonderful website, info and people early into my journey but glad to be here now during recovery.