Hi Pam,

Wow, what a day it's been for you! Big cyber hug sent your way. Scary isn't it, all the talk that they give you and the not knowing exactly what's going to happen. And then the mother in us can't focus on just our feelings, we get all caught up in our childrens and our husbands feelings..........so it's like we're carrying the emotions of an entire family on our shoulders. Boy, can I relate to you on that one. But, it's what we are so why fight it.

Sometimes I've found myself secretly wishing this had all taken place when my children were very small, when they were to young to understand and know what this could all lead to. I find it much harder to deal with my newly turned 17 year old than it is to deal with my 3 year old grandaughter. She simply doesn't get it, so no worries. I'm just Nana, period. With my older girls, I can see the understanding in their eyes and their behavior and I hate it. But again, it is what it is and we can't change it so I just roll with it and make myself available to them

I hope you get some encouraging news on Friday, please keep us posted. Get some rest, do the impossible and try not to worry, and know that we're all pulling for you.

Love,
Minnie