Last week went in for PET and CT. I am 6 years out, and while a normally balanced kinda person...the weeks before my scans were full of 4 am wake ups and minor panic feelings, sweaty palms etc. For sure I am not that tough guy, point walker, don't screw with me 'cause I'll bust your chops kinda guy I was years ago. Coming close to death then in a foreign country or via my cancer later in life put the fear in me. Took the strut and confidence in my invulnerable nature and tossed it out the window. Fear though internalized and coped with, is a subconscious, intrinsic part of who I now am. It sucks

Brian, stage 4 oral cancer survivor. OCF Founder and Director. The first responsibility of a leader is to define reality. The last is to say thank you. In between, the leader is a servant.