Thanks guys for all your positive support, I did go and see my doctor and am taking some antidepressants and have recieved some help to see me through, you are all so brave and amazing and everytime I come to this site I leave feeling a lot stronger, I feel for you all and know that you are all going through a lot too.
An update on my husband, he is still in hospital and is recovering well considering his extensive operation, He tells me that he thinks the operation was worthwhile as it has relieved so much of his head pain, which is so good as he seems a lot less distressed.
take care everyone
think of you all
Love charm