Brandon,
I'm sorry if all this sharing has brought all these bad feelings and memories for you.I am very thankful that you took the time to share on my behalf.I've read all your posts and I don't believe I will need any addtional info from you.I have read many stories on this site regarding the hardships that both paitents and caregivers suffer through.It seems that you had a very difficult time with Tony's illness.It is very understandable that you are carrying this much anger around.I hope you will take heed to Brian's last post and not second guess yourself.I'm sure you did all you could for him as I'm sure his doctors did.I hope that you have a strong support structure it seems like you have alot of things you need to address.I wish you all the luck in the world,and I hope you relize you did all you could to help him and I'm sure he appreciated it.

Take care,
Patty