Vicki- I know exactly how you feel and although Charlie has not had a pet or ct scan to tell us that he is all clear, we get good news and I am happy for an hour and then the fear comes back. I felt like why is everyone so happy and here I am still petrified. I was nervous about my own reaction- until I read your post and Amy's and BOb's responce.
Amy-that was one of the wisest things I have read and you hit it right on, we love them so much and we had our worst fears recognized.
I am just so relieved that I am not alone, but I do think that when (Pray to God) Charlie's test come back clear- I will set our wedding date and look forward to the rest of our lives together.


Delia- Caregiver and fiancee to Charlie ,age 30,(SCC of Larnyx-Stage IV) chemotherapy and radiation- no surgery finished tx:4/7/06 SURVIVIOR!