I was anti head meds too, until 2yrs ago when frank and I both developed PTSD.......I`ve been on them since....been there, done that with feeling like you`re going to explode, and i still alot of anger issues, would still like to see some people`s heads explode and this is coming from a Buddhist who doesn`t even kill bugs....but anger really got me through some rough times, it`s a great motivator.........I never wanted Frank to see how scared I was, I figured he didn`t need to deal with that too,the best advice I can give on that, is to continue to share your fears, there are lots of us who have been where you are now.......so hang on the Board and we`ll stay with ya.....Hugs, Dee