Thanks Dee, I've read alot about your Packer. I'm so sorry. And your right I don't care how he'll look. I just want this damn disease to go away! For all of us. He is sooo strong. And I try to be when we're together (Almost constantly)I don't want to miss one minute of him. How precious that time is now. But I feel like I'm going to explode! I want to kick the hell out of something...or EVERYTHING!I want to scream at the top of my lungs... He can't see me like this. How did you handle it and I'm sure you must still feel that way sometimes. I've always been "anti-head-meds" but I've never felt like this. I NEED to be funtional. He can never see me weak now. This board helps sooo much. It kind of has a satuation effect as well as keeping a perspective of someone else is worse off.