Ok, well I started yelling and man am I tired...
Saw the oncologist today, tumour has grown slightly in 6 weeks, doesn't sound good to me. Got a new pain med, Hydromorph contin, twice a day with Dilaudid for breakthrough. Also got palliative care on the way. They are going to set it up at my house since it doesn't look like mom-in-law is going anywhere soon, if ever. She still says she would like to go home but is scared to, and rightly so. She dozed off with a cigarette today and burnt a hole in my couch!! So, unfortunately I can no longer allow her to smoke without supervision. Not sure how I'm gonna tell her that yet. My head is pounding and I have felt like I was gonna meltdown all day, so I thought I would vent a little. Thanks for listening guys. Keep us in your prayers.

Karen