AAAHHHH, the "WHAT IF'S?"

Funny that I should read this post today. My friend looked at me the other day-not one of her better days-and said, "What if I do all of this and it doesn't work?".

I had no answer, because WHAT can you say. Sometimes when I look at her I have the same conversation in my head. What if it comes back, what if she can never do the things she loves to do again- she's a very active person-what if all of this doesn't work?? Will she accept the "new normal" whatever that may be? What choice is there? So if this goes on in my head imagine what goes on in hers.

The doctors have described a pretty rough road ahead for the next several months. And it is "painful" to hear, never mind live it. Sometimes I only share the positive things I read here, knowing she's not ready to hear the bad. Sometimes that makes me want to scream-I feel like I'm not being honest- but then, if she's really luck-she could have only few side effects. If I could only get myself to believe that.
And anger- there is always a little if that, isn't there? But I try to only give that a few minutes a day, otherwise I'm afraid I'll get stuck there!
To watch someone battle this disease is the hardest thing I've ever done. So hang in there Dragon, everyone here understands.
Liz