Hi Debra, Hopefully some of the caregivers here will be along soon to talk about the feelings you have about this. From the other (former patient) side, I can say that, although I didn't cry much, I did have days when I felt exactly the things your husband was feeling last night. In fact, I think for me the fifth week was the worst because I was feeling pretty bad by then but I knew there were 2 more weeks to go of rad and then the 2-3 weeks after where you feel just as bad or worse and I couldn't imagine how I was going to get through another month or more of feeling so bad!

It really becomes a necessity at this point to take one day at a time, and that is something he'll need to do for himself--there's only so much you can do for him.

I will say that if his mood starts to seem this way constantly, you may want to talk to someone at M.D. Anderson about whether he needs an antidepressant. I never felt I did but many people do during this treatment because it's so hard to take.

I also understand what your hsuand means when he says he has a "feeling he can't explain but he just feels bad all over". It's the radiation causing that--I felt it both times I had rad (I also fought a batle with breast cancer last year). They don't talk about "radiation sickness" for nothing! But this too shall pass in the long run....one day at a time.

Nelie