Hello steve,
Ok my friend your wife said it best "you do not have a choice" you've gotta do this man, just go with as best you can some days you will succeed others will, plain and simple, SUCK, however stay focused, do not be hard on yourself, and always remember there are those around you who love you and they want to help in any way that they can, let them, you will be the helper one day, stick with this group of ours because there will be someone new here tomorrow and you are ahead of them, so you will be an asset to others and I believe that is you anyways, allright brother, nose to the grindstone, don't look back, always forward, accept the bad days but be wise and come out fightin'. Hang in there my friend.
Lenny