Tom, never ever think you are alone. There will always be someone here to talk with you when in need.

Several years ago, like something in the order of 30, I spent a couple of months in a psychiatric hospital. Even today, I have not the faintest idea what the diagnosis was upon my discharge. What I do know, is that one night, a week or ten days before I was discharged, I wrote something that changed my life forever. I must admit that I have no recollection or writing it, but was told about it by one of the staff the next morning.

I am now one month out from the end of my treatment. I have yet to have a post treatment visit with my RO, but have seen my MO. Thus, I have no clue whether what I have gone through has worked or not. Yes, that is causing a whole lot of anxiety. However, reading this thread today brought me back to that time some 20 years ago. I am glad I read it and thank you for sharing your concern. It opened my eyes and brought back that phrase that I wrote so long ago. I would like to share it with you and hope it brings some peace to you, as it has done for me.

Though the future be hidden from me, like a candle in a darkened room, it cannot and will no be found, until a step is taken, or a hand is put forth, by me, today.

The past cannot be changed, as it is history. All we can do is make our own new history, each and every day. I will never see tomorrow, for it is always today. Therefore, I will live for today and make the best history, which will become many yesterdays in time, that I possibly can.