So sorry to hear of your sad news, Helen. You aren't the only one suffering, as my best friend for the past decade suddenly died this week, at age 40. Like your mother, she was my number one supporter through all of this cancer business and the loss of her has been quite palpable.

Despite my grief, I keep pushing myself to make progress, as I know she wouldn't want me going down the deep hole again. Several months ago she verbally kicked my butt to get out of my "angry place" and find more of my own self again.

All I can say is that 2005 isn't going to be my favorite year on this planet. I'm hoping all the bad stuff is behind me now.

My hand is in yours, and I hope we both have better times ahead of us.

Jen