Hi,

My doctors have told me that there have been some cases of SCC in patients who don't smoke and drink like me and several of them have also had cervical cancer as well. I noticed of my patholigy report from uterine cancer that I had in 2001 that I also had abnormal Squamous cells on my cervix. Well anyway, I just wanted to let you know that your not along in the feelings that you feeling about death and timing and all. I think sometimes that I'm not going to be able to fight this anymore if it returns. I don't want my death to be a long drawn out process of pain and torcher. But, I'm trying to just take it one day at a time. I'm only 35 and I have three young children to look after. I realize that these are very selfish thoughts on my part but only we no as cancer patients how hard it is to deal with this and not knowing what the future may hold. Just know that you need to take things moment by moment and try not to look to far in the future so that you lose track of the facts that are right in front of you. My social worker says that you should focas of the facts you have right now. Kelli