Hello Christine,

I hav been silently watching your postings and have felt helpless in assisting. I want to say I'm here if you need anything.

I also want to share some thing with you and Scott. When I was just diagnosed and really not sure I was going to survive (Even after 3 years of survival, I am not certain), I was bothered a great deal by the reality that I couldn't possibly relate all my feelings and thoughts to my children (or my wife for that matter) in a long lasting meaningful way. I settled my mind by deciding to video tape myself talking and sharing my thoughts with them on tape for them to watch after I was gone. I even thought it might be neat to make a tape for each birthday so that I could be there at least in that small way. I can't imagine a better way to be a part of their life and provide support in their grief as well. I hope this might help and I wish there were more I could do.

Take care