Joanna has said it for me too, though I have a tougher time actually living her words. On a conscious level I am unaware of it, but a few weeks before my scans I am noticeably more irritable and short with others. Even my posts here get more curt. But it (the negative feelings) happens on a sub conscious level, because consciously, like Joanna, I know that I have beaten this thing

Brian, stage 4 oral cancer survivor. OCF Founder and Director. The first responsibility of a leader is to define reality. The last is to say thank you. In between, the leader is a servant.