Kim I have to say you are one amazing person, when I read your posts and email I always wish I could be half as upbeat and half as articulate as you.
You always know the right thing to say, and I must say I haven't posted much because I am always afraid I will make someones fear worse, or put my foot in my mouth.
About the watch and wait way of life. I am okay the day after Dan sees his Dr. I sigh and think, great two more months cancer free, and then the day before his appt I start to freak out. I am not sure this will ever get any better. It has been 20 months since Dan's surgery and 18 since his radiation. I am always afraid to say anything like, he goes every three months starting in August because I am always afraid I will jinx us!....
I still try to plan for future events but never too far into the future....Dan gets morbid at times, he is missing his grandma's 85th birthday (she lives out of state) due to work and he says,
"I am sure they wanted to see me before I Die" I was like....where did that come from, you would think his thoughts would be seeing her before she dies, but nope, always thinking he is going to be a goner. He keeps thinking the statistics that were thrown at him. Dan functions great, works out rides bikes etc....I guess if this is his way of dealing with things I will let it be. I think he is afraid of thinking too many good thoughts for fear something bad will happen.
Thanks for your post Kim, always make me smile.
Hugs, Sherrie