Marie-Lynne,
Contrary to David's advice many patients can't or don't want to be up close and personal with this disease from an informational perspective. We see this here a lot and we have as many caregivers seeking information as patients.

I passed out in the ENT's chair when I got the first Dx and I can't even begin to imagine what a Dx of a recurrence would feel like, although, like most of us, I do think about it from time to time.

Just try to stay in the "now". Projecting into the furure will drive you crazy and there is always hope that there a solution to this, such as salvage surgery and/or ct.

We are here to walk with you and support you in any way we can.