Maria,

This AM after treatment, I was having my own "pity party". Every one of us in there succumbs to it at one time or another. It's healthy, as long as we don't dwell forever. Incidentally, Regis and Kelly had a Mother's Day Special, which I cried through the entire time, and the "warm and fuzzy feeling" the show gave snapped me out of it.

I think the same thing about the strength of people here. When they're complimented, everyone is so modest. Then my friends/family compliment me, and I wonder what drugs they're taking to say that. I guess, consciously or otherwise, we see a task and force ourselves to go through it. Willingly or not, we have to get to the other side of each obstical. The hurdle didn't seem so high after we were over it.

A few weeks back, after the realization of Cancer really hit I was simultaneously diagnosed with Endrometriosis. My body "flipped out" and there wasn't a milimeter on my face (eyelids included) that wasn't covered in hives. The saying "God only gives you what you can handle" wasn't cutting it anymore. I thought he'd made a mistake - each thing individually I could handle, but everything at once? I was sure the perverbial horse had trotted away - there was no way I could get back on it.

Then someone said "If He brought you to it, he'll bring you through it." I don't know why, but I've held onto that and it helped me get through those really dark days. Those dark days that we've ALL had. I hope it helps you.

We're here for you. This is an awesome group - Cancer sucks, but it'd be a difficult decision to trade it in and miss out "meeting" all the awesome people I have through this. I'm praying your biopsy comes back clean, and you still have been able to meet everyone here.

Good wishes,
Sabrina