The endless medical 'stuff' is very tiring. Sometimes you feel like going crazy. I didn't have to go thru the same surgeries as you are doing, so I was hesitant to post. For me, I tried to sleep my troubles away, but that didn't work. I became pretty good at denial, figuring that I'd leave tomorrow's worries in tomorrow. I'm still using denial as a coping method. However, it's hard to forget stuff when you have permanant hardware inserted in your body. I would thank God in my prayers when I'd have a certain amount of time (couple hours) without a medical thought. Good luck and pray for a resolution that you can live with.