Thank you all for your kind words. It really means a lot to know that there are people out there who know what I am going through and indeed have been in the same position. I have decided that I will stay out right up until Friday and keep as much 'normality' as I can right up until then. My Fiancee is a truly remarkable lady for several reasons...1. To put up with me makes her close to saintlyhood!! and 2. To want to help me through this just 10 years after cancer took her mother is quite incredible, I conider myself a very lucky man to have her.

I guess my greatest fears are that it will come back (although my dr. says that quitting smoking has lessened the chances of that greatly) or that I may have reduced tongue function....in some ways that is my biggest fear I guess, because I like to talk!!!!

Oh, and by the way....I will not just disappear from the forum after everything is done....you all have been very kind and words from both patients, survivors and caregivers have been very helpful, both on threads I have posted and just reading other threads.

Take care all
Christopher