Christopher, I had time between diagnosis and srgery too, and I didn't have the option of staying at work ( I was essential service, and couldn't take pain meds and work)

Probably just as well. I was an emotional basket case the last 10 days. Emotional highs, lows and everything in between. My wife told me that the morning I was admitted to hospital, she thought I was going to jump out of the car into traffic on a couple of occasions during our drive to the hospital. This was pure, raw emotions...fear, sadness, anxiety, disbelief that this could be happening to me.

I am VERY level emotionally. My job demanded that of me for many years. I had a great deal of difficulty with the emotional melt-downs that would reduce me to tears without warning. Me..the tough guy, made of stone..deal with a fatal plane crash and go for lunch right afterwards. Yet that same tough guy breaks down in tears at the sight of his daughter coming over to say hi.

If you're finding the emotions overwhelming, don't ignore them. They won't go away, however you can help yourself a lot more by dealing with that "stuff" as your only priority.

Someone who's opinion I value a great deal told me at the time,
"for the first time in a long time, put YOU first. Everything else is just noise right now"

This IS all about you. It is the toughest battle you have ever fought, and don't make any mistake about that. Use every ounce of enegry you have fighting it.
Wayne