Janine-
I can relate to the crying. My husband (also Stage IV)had the surgery of the tumor on his tongue and lymph nodes removed on July 12th. Because the cancer escaped the lymph nodes he is getting weekly chemo (cisplatin), Erbitux, and also daily radiation. (started August 16th, last treatment September 29th) We have 6 children at home, the youngest is 3. I have found myself in tears at the grocery store, at the bank drive-up, when hanging out the laundry, taking out the garbage (David used to do that). David is doing well, though, better than I expected after reading stories on here. He has not had much nausea from the chemotherapy and his throat is just now starting to get sore. He has been using the feeding tube again for that past few days since he was losing too much weight. This site DOES help, and feels like a support system for me. Visit it whenever you have questions.