Gypsy
Im gonna preach at you. God is your strength, but you are here on this stinkin earth that is filled with yuck. But in that yuck there is some real great things, you know this. The only way Erik and I made it through this was to look for the blessings. Every day I looked for a blessing, there were days where I kinda needed to help the blessing along,one day (I went to the pet store to look at the puppies, this one little doxie looked at me with those big brown eyes and rolled over on his back, soft tender, vulnerable, belly up. I stopped and realized that what that puppy was doing with me (trusting me) was what God wanted from me too. So get on your back and stick your belly to the sky, start looking for a blessing every day, and write it down. When this is over, however God chooses to finish this cancer, you or your loved ones will have something that will be forever cherished, seeing the things that blessed you through this journey. My blessing book has small blessings and huge ones, and on those really rotten days Erik and I could go back and read them and it did make us feel loved, and the most wonderful thing about it was that we could really really see Gods hand and all the things he was doing, and how he used this ugly cancer for beauty.
I am praying for you, and I hope somehow I brought encouragement to you tonight.
God Bless
Jennie