Hillary, Hi. Wish you, Jeff and your kids weren't having to go through this. How old ae they? You are really going to need to be dedicated to keeping yourself in good shape because you've got a tough job! I don't think it is good for you to dwell on "only one chance to get it right". You are at a great Cancer Center and should be getting the best professional care. Just keep talking and learning and being proactive for Jeff. Hang in thee. Amy