Dizz_zzey, Pain for the first 5 days was pretty exhausting, but today I think I can wean myself off the narcotic as it appears to be making me depressed. All I want to do is cry. My F/U with my surgeon is next Friday and I’ll get the results of the pathology report whether the margins re clean. Haven’t gotten the results of that and I’m already fretting a reoccurrence. Never read about anyone that goes on to live to be old with this diagnosis. Hate reading the statistics cause it makes me feel like “what’s the point in all the debilitating treatment”. I guess this way of thinking is part of the depression. Have no family who lives close for emotional support. Worked for the military for years so friends moved on quickly. Probably need to seek mental health support regardless what the path report shows next Friday. I don’t think a referral from my surgeon would be an unreasonable request.