I’ll be thinking of you on that day Dizz_zzey. I think what you call breaking down is more like a catharsis (emotional release), a way of cleansing one’s self of all emotions so we can regroup and become strong again. Your defense mechanisms are kicking in for you. We’ll be with you in spirit that day. Hugs.

SSC Lt sublingual tongue; Age 62
Positive biopsy 20June2019
Staging done 2 Jul : Stage 1
Quit smoking 15 years ago; not a drinker; no HPV
Pet/ CT 6Jul2019 : Negative. Not even the Lt tongue lit up.
Partial Glossectomy 22Jul2019