Rosie,

Marcy is in alot of pain, the tumor on her cervical spine is giving her the greatest amount of pain. They are going to check with Interventional Pain management today to see if she can get some kind of a injection in her cervical nerve root. She is also getting a feeding tube today. She has to have a open procedure as the doctors told her that her stomach is too flat to do it by scope. She can't get general anesthesia because they can't get any tubes down her throat and they can't bend her neck. I pray that she can get enough pain meds for this procedure. The tumors on the outside of her neck and throat continue to get bigger, she said she feels like she is being strangled. I can't believe there is nothing they can do to stop them. She is getting very tired of the pain and we are heartsick watching. She is so strong and she doesn't want to give up she just wants to feel good so she can be with Breanna and do the things that she loved doing. She would love nothing more then to just go on a shopping trip with me. Who would have ever thought that cancer would stop her from doing those things.. She wants to beable to go home for a few days and feel good enough to do something normal.
If things go ok with putting the feeding tube in and in the next few days she can go home they are sending her home without antibiotics because they told her she will get another infection and then they won't have anything left to fight it with.
I am holding up some only because things aren't real to me, I don't feel like this is really happening. If something does happen to Marcy I don't know how I will beable to deal with it. She means the complete world to me.
I am taking the next two weeks off from work to be with her.
I will be in touch when able.

Thank you for caring,
Michelle