Daisy,we just got home today from John's 2nd surgery and our ongoing battle against this damnable disease. Remember, "it aint over till it's over" Being the caregiver and a wife gives you the right to panic attacks, anxiety attacks, fits of depression-whatever. Being a wife and caregiver also DEMANDS that you will be one tough cookie from now on and fight like hell for your hubby. There are alot of people here who will prop you up, teach you things you need to know and just "be here" for you. Read the advice above again- it's good. Stay with us and let us help. Amy