I have been a Chewing tobacco user for the past 20 years and I am 39 years old. There was a 3 year window when I did quit but then I fell back into the habit and have been dipping for the past 8 years. I recently quit cold turkey, I am on day 32. Every day is tough and the mental anguish I am putting myself through is unbearable. I have 3 boys aged 5, 7 and 10 and I cannot believe that I was selfish enough to continue dipping when I have these beautiful kids to look forward to. I would put the dip in my upper lip for the past 6-7 years and after quitting I have a noticeable area of Leukoplakia. I recently had a dental appointment after quitting for 3 weeks. My doctor's advice was to wait 6 months and take a look at it then. Everywhere I have read is that if something is there after 2 weeks of cessation, get it tested. So I called an Oral Surgeon and I have a second opinion scheduled for January 4th. I know for a fact the area will still be there come January 4th and I am going to push for a Biopsy. I have a hard time not thinking about this 100% of my day, planning my funeral, thinking about being disfigured, thinking about my kids growing up without a father. I look in my mouth numerous times just hoping to see some sign of it going away and it has become an obsession. I am not comfortable speaking about this as I am a person who just likes to keep things inside, and I really don't want to talk about this with anyone, even my wife. This is something I have brought upon myself and I am pissed every day. But unfortunately I don't have a Time Machine and I am going to have to live with the decisions I have previously made. I found this site and I would like to use it as an avenue to get some of my feelings out. I hope and pray that anyone on this site who has been diagnosed with Cancer beats it. Thank you for allowing me to vent, really helps.