Hi everybody,

male, 40 years, married.
It has been 8 months since I had mild sore throat, redness of soft palate. No improvement with rounds of antibiotic. March, a lump of marble size in right neck. April, a pea size lump under my jaw. Have been to ENT for scope, no growth, slightly enlarged tonsil, doctor diagnosed as acid reflux. No biopsy done. June, feel something on my base of tongue.
Googled a lot, until I am convinced that it is tonsil HPV+ cancer that have spread to tongue and lymph nodes.
I think I infected HPV from my ex-gf long time ago.
Now feel doomed and guilty to my wife, as she is monogamous.
and she think I am too.
I think already infected HPV to her, she shows signs of cervical cancer and oral cancer too. And my young daughter possible has recurrent respiratory papilomatosis.
Oh no, what have I done. Our life in danger.
I need support, but i think my wife will kill me if i confess. Now, I don't know what to do.

guilty and hopeless,
Steven.