Thanks also Alpaca, I appreciate the words of the people here even more than the doctor's. Only someone who has experienced this either as a patient or caregiver truly understand this from our standpoint. I felt so alone before fining this forum. My family don't know what to say to me and if I try to talk with them about my thoughts and feelings they say I shouldn't do the research or talk about it. Thank you all for the support. I can't express just how much it means to me.