It's psychologically bad for you to have to wait this long. I assume that the doctors think it is medically okay. It's a good sign that the nurse found nothing wrong when she looked at your throat. However, you can't go on like this. You need to ring the hospital and ask to speak to someone, if possible the surgeon or one of his/her staff. I think it's in their code of practice that they must minimise patient distress. They need to make you fully aware of the medical situation you are in. Fine words from me because I was just like you over Christmas. I got my cancer (recurrence) diagnosis from a phone message and assumed I couldn't talk to anyone until the holiday season was over. That three week period was one of the most miserable in my life. Looking back, I can see that there were things I could do. There would have been people on duty in the ENT ward. I could have requested a conversation.

Once you are more fully in the picture, you will feel better. Take all the help you can get: Cancer Society etc.