Maria & Gloria,
You both wrote about something that I relate to:

- I can't make him immortal (but I thought I could make it easier than this). I think I was more prepared for death from cancer than suffering through ORN. I know that sounds crazy.

- When things go wrong, it is not my fault (I do tend to blame myself). It has been my mission to keep him out of the hospital.

Finally heard back from NYC oral surgeon. Have appt this Monday. I will try to wait for his evaluation before worrying more.

Thank you all. It has helped me to write this and see that others understand and care.