Paul: I know you have been through multiple recurrences and so many horrible side effects. Thank you for responding.

I don't think it's harder as a caregiver, but it is different. My husband is very optimistic by nature. I don't want him to get my contagion, but I can't deny my current feelings. I have successfully guided his recovery up to now - maybe it's time for him to take the lead....My mind is thinking too far out.