I am so deeply sorry that you have had to deal with this monster popping up again. Never in my life would I think that I would find so many good, caring friends in the face of adversity and tragedy.

You are brave and I applaud you for keeping up with your social routine as you face your upcoming surgery. I fell apart both times when I was diagnosed and could not function at all. We all have our own way of dealing with things.

I hope that you have a great support system in place. Congratulations on the immanent arrival of your sweet granddaughter. Just think of how it will feel to hold her in your arms for the first time. That warm, tiny bundle of joy; a new life to live. Think of the wonderful smell of her tiny little head; one of the sweetest smells in the world.

Hang on to anything that keeps you going and makes you want to fight for your life. I think it's great that you already have plans to return to your bell choir after you recover some.

It's so incredibly hard, in so many ways. Even though I am a two-time survivor, I feel like I got off lucky compared to many on these forums.

I wish you all the luck one could have in this world as you endure this surgery and recovery. I wish I could say something more profound or comforting. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything go away. I wish that for all of us.

xoxo,
Kerri