Hi Kristen: I'm glad that the break helped. Reading your post reminded me of my journey, which, like yours, was nothing short of a journey to hell, but I got through it, and you will get through it, too That's what people on this site told me, and knowing that they had gone through it, too, made me believe them. This site saved my life, helped me to feel less lonely and isolated. Hope you are finding strength from it, too. All the best, Michelle