So if the drinking is out of boredom, then it would seem logical to do something to kill the boredom. You could start with something physical like regular walking or jogging every day, doing something for someone else or volunteering someplace. Just getting outside and the deep breathing and exercise does wonders for getting oxygen to your brain and making you feel better. Your "outbursts of rage" are not healthy for you nor for those close to you. They could be due to any meds you are on or drinking or any number of things. We are not doctors here, so it is really important to start helping yourself by checking with the doctor about your feelings. You CAN make changes but you have to do them for yourself, not because someone else is telling you to, but because you care enough about yourself to be happy and healthy.