Brian - we've all been in your shoes. The medical community just doesn't realize how much we want this disease gone, and I mean today, not two weeks or two months from now.

I would like to say from diagnosis to beginning of treatment there is a lot that has to be done, but is there really that much to do. I'll bet if you were a VIP, a president, a senator etc, things would move faster, way faster.

But, for us mortals, we just have to suck it up and wait our turn.

If you're stressing over all this, that's normal, but it's also counter-productive, it let's the C win. It's easy to say don't think about it, go on with your life. Do the things that you enjoy because later you won't be able too for awhile. While easy to say, it's not easy to do.

I don't know if I was always just so tired that I didn't have the energy to think about it or if I really did have that many diversions going on in my life. But, long story short, I haven't spent a bunch of time fretting over what might happen, what might go wrong, what might not work, etc etc.

Bart, one of our members here taught me a phrase "don't attach to outcomes". Don't get your hopes up or down about anything that you are going through or about to go through. If you do and then it goes the other way, you've just set yourself up for possible depression, and none of us need that.

Instead, just try to say, okay, it's 3 weeks til treatment begins and have no other judgment positive or negative about it. You have plenty of reading and educating yourself to be doing right now with info on the forum and on the website. Spend your time on that rather than on things you have no control over.

I'm not preaching, I've just heard it over and over on the forum by member after member. This is a way more positive use of your time and energies than the negative alternatives.

Hang in there, you will get through this just fine. Write and ask questions when you need too. We will help you get through it.

take care

Tony

P.S. While this forum is very appropriate for this particular question, I think you would get more in the way of responses if you put it in your Introduce Yourself thread. That is where we got to know you. There is where we can easily scan your thread to remind us of who you are before we respond. If my question in any way related to me then I always leaned toward using my Introduce Yourself thread. Just a thought. Once my treatment actually began then I closed out the Introduce Yourself thread and began a Currently in Treatment thread. I'm looking forward to the Post treatment thread which should begin just after Christmas.