I am talking the post Dx, pre Tx wait.

I am not scared of the treatment per se. I knew about 2 weeks ago what the plan was going to be, and I know it's going to suck, and I will be miserable no matter how brave I am. I told my wife to throttle me if I become too needy or too whiny.

But I am worried about the length of time that cancer has been active in my body. I start treatment Dec 5th. But on this past Thursday I developed a sore tooth after hitting a shell from a bag of mixed nuts. I have a dental apt tomorrow, but I just don't want to wait any more.

The thought of distant mets has me nervous... I know I can't let it eat me up. But 60 days from me noticing nodal involvement to 1st treatment seems like an awful long time.

Edit: I guess this is just me venting. I'm sure you've all been here.