You're about to receive tons of solid advice from lots of awesome folks on this board. My experience was, as a tough guy, I am not going to be one of those "every headache is a tumor" people. I'm stronger than that.

That lasted until a clogged salivary gland that was swollen, kind of hard and sore. I completely freaked out.

After we figured out what it was it was obvious I had to come up with something a little more realistic. My cancer probably won't come back. But it might. So what am I going to do TODAY? If there is bad news coming in two weeks, it still doesn't change what I do with TODAY. Do stuff you love with people you love. Have to work? Work doing stuff you enjoy with people you like hanging with. I didn't do that the first half of my life and now I wonder why...

Everyone gets bad news. With a little luck, my bad news is 30 or so years down the road. I still get mopey every now and then but now I will re- read what I just wrote you and make "The Main Thing" the main thing again. What you're feeling is normal, how you respond to it is in many ways up to you. Peace and blessings!