My husband was diagnosed with stage 3 BOT/HPV- about a year ago. For the last year, he's gone through 8 weeks of radiation/chemo, and then a follow up round of chemo that lasted weekly for about 4 months. I've been trying to be very supportive and positive, but at the same time, I know that somewhere in my brain, I was also preparing for the worst. Well, about 3 weeks ago, he had a PET scan, and it came back clear. His doctor is feeling very optimistic about his being "cured," and my husband is thrilled. I am trying very hard to also be happy with the results, but there is someplace down deep inside that is terrified of believing that he is in the clear. I know that I have distanced myself from him out of fear. Is there a way to stop expecting the worst? Any suggestions so I can stop looking over my shoulder? I'm just afraid to let myself believe it and getting a round-kick to the head when it comes back. Anyone else is this same boat?