Chris, Welcome to the site. Thou i wish you never had to join. I am so sad to read your post. However you have came to the right place. There are so many of us on here to talk to and to help in what ever way we can. You have a long road ahead there is no other way to put it. We will all try to do what we can to help you thru that year. You have every right in the world to be "SCARED". I don't think there is a soul in this world that would not be "SCARED" when the word CANCER is involved. My heart is breaking for your 15 year old son. Life has not be nice to him. That poor little man has a lot to deal with. Make sure you always re-enforce your love for him and keep him up to date so that he doesn't have to worry un-neccessaraly. Don't know if that is spelled right or not. He has already lost his moma, the fear of being left alone must be tearing him up inside. you may need to get him into some counseling just to get his thoughts on the right track. This is what I did with my two kids when I first learned that I had CANCER. They were also young like young son. It helped them a great deal. My heart just hurts for you it really does. I have a few suggestions to make I hope you will at least take them into consideration. Before you start anything--take family pictures, take a picture of you and your fiance. Trust me you will have wished you did. Next eat all the favorite things you love to have----NOW. Say all those things that you never said---say them now. I don't know what all your future holds,,,,these are things that I did for myself before anything got started with me. I thank my stars in HEAVEN above that I did this..You will be in my thoughts and my prayers.....God Bless you , MIss Vicki.