Julieann,Tina,Paul and Cheryl,
Thank you for the kind words and thoughts. They mean the world to me because I know only this Forum understands. My family helps but different.
I slept good last night but I had a moment this morning of disbelief. It took me a second to grasp that I was here again - waiting...
My 3 year definitely helps me be distracted.
Thank you all.

Age 44. Diagnosed at 34 (2006) with T1N0 SCC tongue on right side. Neck dissed & 6 weeks Radiation. 30% tongue removed. Never smoked;
2nd recurrence 1/2013 on left side. Surgery to remove 2/2013 forearm flap/neck dissec T1N0; brachytherapy 4/2013;
3rd recurrence 11/2015 mandibulectomy for jaw bone cancer Stage IV/no lymph node involvement