Davids you've heard from some amazing people Bette seems to have a lot of experience with what you are going through... everyone is terrified of the possibility of a recurrence. Many have gone through it mulitple times. There is definitely life after what you have to go through but I absolutely support what everyone else here has said. TIME is of the essence first off whatever you do do it ASAP. Secondly a CCC will offer you the absolute BEST treatment, with some of the best drs. they have experience with this type of cancer as cancer is WHAT they do. They may have alternatives for you as well. Do try to get to one of them if you can! hugs and welcome. I am sorry you had to join but its a good group to be a part of. PS education is the best weapon and just because someone says that there is slim to little hope... that isn't always the case. Not everyone follows the same path.