Hey everybody haven't been on for a long time. Just taking each day as it comes. Well now I'm getting scared...one of the tumors in Ron's neck that you can't see is growing and making it hard for him to talk now...it's gotten bigger and I'm now afraid that maybe it may grow enough to hit that f'n carotid artery...it would be quick but I'm not ready...I told him I want to have him go for a CT scan...he won't. He says he's holding out for Christmas...he was crying...then again he's been hitting the Jack Daniels my daughter bought him for his birthday Tuesday I told him lay off that Jack. I'm afraid...what will happen, what will I do, I so know that the lungs weren't going to get him I knew the tumors on his neck will win this f'n battle we have fought I know the damn oncologist knows nothing bout Oral Cancer he said the lungs will get him before the ones on his neck...I disagree. I want a CT scan but Ron won't do it he said he's done. I'm not! I can see the tumor on his neck the left side the one under his chin has slowed down but not inside, I wish that it would be his lungs, with the one on his neck...it can happen in a flash I've read that here so it's not like he's you know in hospice cuz he's able to move around but I feel it will be bam it's done but I will be at work...or sleeping...I'm scared. What do I do now? Make him go to a nursing home to be watched 24/7? What do I do?